(Ok a lot of this sounds like me complaining but please remember that I use this blog to journal my symptoms and issues so I kinda have to put it all here). Well it has been a little over two weeks since I ran out of Abilify, and since I have to get a new prescription which requires a new doctor and then waiting to get approved again for the prescription assistance program and then waiting for the prescription to come it. This is going to be a process. I had an appointment for the doctor this week but it was supposed to rain all day and so I had to cancel. (Right, I haven’t written about this. I won’t drive/ride in the car in the rain. At least not our car because it has an issue where if it rains to much the wipers stop working….And I didn’t like riding in the car in the rain to begin with so that just makes everything much much more difficult.)
Since I don’t have my Abilify I have been taking Ativan (.5 mg) in the morning and in the afternoon (as needed) which really is amazingly good since I was taking Abilify and Ativan (as needed). I am definitely dealing with depression issues and symptoms, and I really don’t like that, and want the Abilify back for those. Thankfully I was on such a low dose I haven’t really had any major detox side effects or anything.
I am really clinging to God more through this, I have a book of verses and prayers that I have put together that I read through nearly every morning to help get me through, and then again before I go to bed, or at anytime the pain gets too bad.
Ahhh, pain…Yes for the last month or so I am waking up nearly every morning in such insane pain, that it is waking me up. Basically my back and hips are locking up, I think I would like to try a chiropractor but those cost money….and since we are still paying upwards of $200 a month on my drugs and I don’t have/can’t get insurance it will probably have to wait. I have found a few yoga stretches that I can do in the morning to help to release the pain/tension so that does help.
Last week I had this major dizzy spell, where I could barely stand upright, let alone walk so that was new and weird. And I am ricking a serious headache today. Oh such fun. That’s about it for now.
